well...is anyone ELSE freaked out yet...

with all this FLU?!?!?! my dh and and i were talking about this that years previous, you MIGHT have heard ONE family that got the flu....NOW....it is EVERYWHERE! SO SCARY! WE are soooo worried about our family catching it...we have heard soooo many of our families that have all cought it and we just sit here and wait?! it's scary...

anyway, we are all doing GREAT, THANK YOU JESUS! it has been a good week, just hangin out and working on our family...alex is doing AMAZING in 2nd grade...matthew is doing AMAZING in kinder with his teacher....joshua is doing AMAZING being a 2 year old!! :)

today, i had a couple of friends and we went to THE MOVIES to see....FAME!! my all time FAVORITE movie (ok, the original was) so i was eager to see this one....i actually had the soundtrack of the ORIGINAL movie on a RECORD and i have the VHS tape of the movie!! :) LOVE IT!

today...

would have been my moms 67th BIRTHDAY!! :( she is soooo missed...she left us almost 6 years ago and she never met MATTHEW and JOSHUA....i know she would have been soooo in love with them...with ALEX, her FIRST grandchild, she SPOILED him and loved him soooo much i can only IMAGINE what she would have thought of her other 2 grandchildren!! James and i always think of her and remember her baking, cooking, going with us camping and on our trips....she LOVED to cook and we use to have SUNDAY BRUNCH at her house with all of her brothers and sisters...it was such a time of laughter and being silly with family...that is missed...i feel that when my mom passed away, a part of HER family (brothers and sisters) was missing too....we don't get together anymore as a family for brunch.....that is missed by ME and my family...i LOVED those times of being together with my family....my grandmother lived with my mom and then we would have all of her bro and sis and their families, make homemade tortillas, carne guisada, menudo, beans and any type of taco filling you could think of....all HOMEMADE!!! fun fun fun....since she passed, we don't do that anymore...sooooo sad....

but just wanted to say.....MOM, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! MY BOYS STILL LET THEIR BALLOONS GO TO HEAVEN SO THAT YOU CAN HAVE THEM TOO!! WE LOVE YOU AND MISS YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!

I'M BACK!!! :)

hola there.....it has been soooo long since i have blog...i am sad that i have let it go....i have been CONSUMED (VERY ADDICTED) to FACEBOOK and i seem to post EVERYTHING there....i need to reconnect with my blog cause this is my RECORD of our life....sooo, i am BACK and i am going to make a promise to myself that THIS is where i need to post what is going on in my life FIRST!!! (BUT if you want to follow me on FACEBOOK, look me up!!:)

well, since i am back, i need to update on myself....i have had a fun filled last couple of months of FINALLY getting myself checked out....i have ALWAYS had a lot of problems in my life such as GASTRO, FIBRO, etc....so, i finally got myself an appt with a GASTRO, a RHEUMOTOLOGIST, and my dr and got things rolling...i have had MRI'S, ENDOSCOPY/COLONOSCOPY, UPPER GI's...i am now on 3 medications (2 for pain, 1 for gastro) and it is pretty bad...but i am FINALLY getting myself taken care of!!!

well, MATTHEW started school last week and he is doing AMAZING!!!!! YESTERDAY, he READ for the FIRST TIME!!! nad what do i mean about that? well, the teacher showed ome on monday a sheet of paper with 3 words on it (MATTHEW, MOMMY, DADDY) AND she would flip the card over and he would then SAY dada, when MOMMY came up he would point to MEEEEEE and when MATTHEW would come up, he would point to himself!!! is that not MAAZING?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?! what a MIRACLE!!!

JAMES ALEX II is now 7 YEARS OLD!!

wow, where have the years gone too?? it is so hard to believe that my baby boy is now 7 years old and is in the 2nd grade! i am just so proud of this little boy and to remember when he was a little baby...my first little guy....

he was the one that we had waited for for SOOOOO long! over 5 years of trying before this littel miracle entered our life...and what a miracle he IS!! when i think of how what a 'RIPLEY'S BELIEVE IT OR NOT' moment....when i see how much he has GROWN in the recent years and how AMAZING he is...my heart fills with JOY! sometimes, i feel like i am too hard on him because he is the oldest and i have to remind myself that he is still a little boy even though he might ACT like he is a TEENAGER!! he is so smart that i sometimes forget....but oooohhhhh how i love that little boy....i am just in awe of him.....

well, to you baby boy, MOMMY AND DADDY AND YOUR 2 BABY BROTHERS LOVE YOU LIKE NO OTHER!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ALEX! WE LOVE YOU!!!!!

We are on vacation!!!!!

Hey there. Just wanted to say that we are officially on vacation!!!! One wonderful week together
rving at corpus Christi....we are at theNAS naval base rv park....it is beautiful here and so open
and spaceous!! we love it! We will be here for one whole week! Can you believe it $90 for the whole week?

I will post later when I can ....

GIVE KIDS THE WORLD NEWSLETTER!! :)

HEY THERE!!! just wanted to share withever one the GIVE KIDS THE WORLD newsletter!!

here is the link to that site:

http://www.gktw.org/newsletter/mm_summer_2009.html

ENJOY!!! :)

ME......

hello and WOW...it has been a LONE time since i have been around here!! sorry...life has been so busy with getting a new pool and just being busy in everyday stuff!!

well, this post is about ME...such a wierd way of doing it but i don't think i have many 'ME' post here!!! :) and this is my blog....hmmm??!! but as of today, i FINALLY after several years, been able to get some important APPOINTMENTS done!! for ME!!

sooo, i had 3 APPOINTMENTS that where for me and my issues...

sooo, last week, i had an appt for my ARM...i think i have talked about this right arm before but i FINALLY, 3rd times the charm, had a DOCTOR that would HELP ME with my ARM!! you see, my forearm hurst SOOOOOOOO BAD and can bring me to my KNEES when someone hits it or even taps it...i always say that if you are EVER mad at me and want to get at me, just hit me on my ARM!!! i start to CRY I( and you KNOW i am not a crier) when it is hit...it is osoooooo intense! anyway, i have gone 3times before on this issue in the last 2 years and the first time, they told me it was CARPAL TUNNEL SYNDROME, gave me a BRACE and sent me on my way....NO RELIEF...so i went back and this time , they told me it was TENNIS ELBOW and gave me a DIFFERENT brace and vitamin D and excersises....again, with NO RELIEF...so, this time, i went in AGAIN, armed with I AM GOING TO GET TO THE BOTTOM OF THIS additude and i had an AMAZING dr that actually listen to me and REALLY checked me out....she doesn't know what is wrong but now the pain has radiated to my SHOULDER and it is getting REALLY REALLY BAD....so, i am getting an MRI of my shoulder and arm, she is going to see what is wrong and MIGHT send me over to NEUROLOGY for my arm if there is nothing showing on the MRI and for my shoulder, she thinks maybe a TEAR and maybe i might need a steroid shot?!..but SOMETHING IS FINALLY BEING DONE!!! soooooooo happy!!! I pray nothing is wrong but still, at least they are looking at it!!

sooo, then yesterday, i had an appt with a DIFFERENT dr (but still in my team) on my FIBRO issue....i also did lab work for a cholesterol screening and such (which was AMAZING!! :) my bad colesterol(ldl) was 69, my good cholesterol(HDL) was 92 and the only thing HIGH was my triglycerides at 195...but she said because my good cholesterol was so AMAZING she said it canceled out any of the BAD!! :) soooo, YAY for me! anyway, onto the FIBROMYALGIA appt...well, we talkeda bout it and such and i told her that since i was diagnosed back on july 2003, i have not been followed by a REUMETOLOGIST since then!!! yup! so, she ordered some blood work and she did the PRESSURE POINTS on me at i had 16 out of 18 points that HURT!! YIKES!! it was horrible...i am ALWAYS in soooo much pain but i have just learned to deal with it...i couldn't really do anything for myself because i was either trying to get pg, pg, nursing so i didn't like to take meds! she got onto me and told me that i needed to take care of ME!! so she prescribed me FLEXIRIL (which i took last night and it PERECT cause i didn't feel tired the next day) and some 800MG IBUPROFIN...she said she would try to get me in to a REUMOTOLOGIST appt after i get my blood work ( i did some more blodd work today)...

and then TODAY, i had my appt for GASTRO/SLEEP...well, it was the same doctor as yesterday and we started to talk....i told her my previous history, about beind diag since i was 15 and having my NISSEN FUNDO in 1999 and that since i had that, i had NOT been back to a gastro since THEN!! i started to think about it and thought i need to get back to see a gastro....also, the last 2 years, i started to get HEARTBURN again, tummy issues and diahrea...also, my chest pains and such...so i KNEW ti was coming BACK!! the nissen is suppose to hold for 15 years but since i had had 3 kids since it happened, i figured that maybe the pressure of having the kids might have added some years to me! THEN i started to worry because i USE to have polyps (in the colon) before and i had not been checked in 10 years and then the reason that i had the NISSEN is because i had the begining of BARRETS ESOPHAGEAL SYNDROM which is basically ESOPHOGEAL CANCER...and i had not had a check up in over 10 years...yeah, that is BAD!!! :( anyway, i don't know WHY i started to think of that but i did...so, i am going to get a consult to GASTRO and while i was at the office and she was doing a check up on me, she noticed something...she was like, WHAT IS THAT? and i was like, huh? she said that she had not noticed that yesterday and when she pointed it out, i told her that i had had that for a while and i always that thought it had to do with my FIRBRO and being stressed...well, she said, i don't think so...and now i have to have an ULTRASOUND on my neck/shoulder because she said that there is a MASS there, which i saw and now i am SLIGHTLY freaked out about....she said that it is not normal but she didn't feel any lumps more of a squishy MASS on my shoulder...i just pray it comes out ok!

soooo, there it is...a post about ME!! :) and most of it is good becuase i am finally taking CARE of ME!! that had been on the back burner for so long...but now, it is about ME and taking care of ME!! :) hey, i like that word...MEMEMEMEMEMEMEMEME!! LOL

anyway, so now i am on NEXIUM, FLEXIRIL, IBUPROFIN and i am getting an MRI and ULTRASOUND and i am getting consults to GASTRO for sure, possibliy to REUMOTOLOGY and NEUROLOGY...i have had 2 panels of BLOOD WORK done...wow, all in a weeks time! not too shabby! i just pray that all the results are just as great as the cholesterol screening!! :)

the POOL IS UP!! :)

YES, after much talk back and forth, we finally did it....we bought an ABOVE GROUND POOL!! :) soooo, excited and happy! our boys LOVE to get in the water so this is a WELCOME addition to our family...it is nothing fancy but it is PERFECT! it is a 15' x 48" pool and it is sooooo awesome! the boys are all so excited about getting in! they can't WAIT for it to fill up!! neither can WE!!

ANYWAY, I will have to upload some pictures of it...we decided to put the pool near the privacy fence...it is a secluded spot with nobody's windows looking onto it!! i LOVE THAT SPOT! so excited it fit just right!

anyway...more pictures coming SOON!

so i am reading this book and WOW...

i am a BIG BIG BIG romance reading kinda gal..i read about 2-3 books a week on a good week...just my way of 'getting away'...anyway, i am reading this book by LORI WICK "bamboo & lace" is the name and i hadn't really realized that it is Christian based and it is pretty cool and giving me INSIGHT!! :) gotta love that...well, there have been a couple of passages that have really hit home and made me THINK...and i just started the book but i just had to blog about it!! sooo...

just a quick thing"IS God in charge here or not? when did He call and tell you to take over? be yourself with these people! Say things you're thinking and stop fearing their rejection." and of course that is soooo me! i am SOMETIMES struck mute because i want to say something but i FEAR being thought of wrong or saying the wrong thing...i need to trust more in GOD and just know that he will put the words i need in my mind!!!

and then this: "I use to get angry with Evan and Peter when they ddidn't do things my way. Then I understood that all anger is directed at God. If He's in control-and of course He is-then my growing angry at any situation menas that i disagree with His rule and authority" and WOW...well, i tend to get angry with alex a BUNCH when we are doing school work and he is just soooooooo lax and not really doing his best and just taking his time...why? he is doing his work....but it FUSTRATES ME because i know, that if he just worked a bit FASTER, he could finish and be able to play and such...i don't need to do that!!!

anyway, just something i am reading and is making me think things thru!!! so far so good on the book too!! :) pretty cute!

so james is OFF!!

yep, today is the start of 2 weeks without our beautiful DH....we dropped him off early this am before 6am and don't expect him back for about 14 days....awww....and as soon as he was gone, i was OFF CLEANING!! what is WITH THAT? whenever james leaves, i CLEAN....my house is NEVER as clean as it is when he is gone...i don't know if that is good or not....

anyway, i have been REALLY LAZY in updating my blog but starting today, i am going to up load all the pictures from the party and blog about what an AMAZING birthday party we had for MATTHEW....i just need to get a move on it!!

GETTING BAPTISED!! :)

so today, we BAPTISED TRISTAN (our new GOD son!), JOSHUA & finished getting MATTHEW baptised....he WAS already baptised in the operating room on his day of birth but he had to be introduced to the community and annointed with the oils! it was GREAT!!!

our son JOSHUA Godparents and our family have a GREAT bond....trisha (my cousin) actually introduced james and i!! and she met HER hubby that day of the party where i met james too!! :) we were PADRINOS in thier wedding and they were our PADRINOS in our wedding....we baptised their son Tristan!! :) it was a really nice ceremony...the decon said that that was the FIRST time he had ever baptised someone that had had an EMERGENCY baptism!! he said it was REALLy specail and rare for that to happen...he said that most babies don't make it....such a MIRACLE our little guy is!

so, here are some pictures of that beautiful day!

soooo, we had a BIRTHDAY PARTY....

for matthew!! :) i know sooooo last minute but it just couldn't be helped! we decided about 2 weeks in or less that.....but it went SOOOO WELL! we had NEVER had so little time to put it all together...we also had a BAPTISM on SUNDAY for both JOSHUA, TRISTAN (i am a GOD MOTHER NOW!!!) and MATTHEW!!! soooo we were REALLY BUSY!

anyway, we had a GREAT turn out and it was SOOOO NICE to see so many of our friends and family there!! we had about 60 people there...just PERFECT! sooo, i just wanted to share with you some pictures of this day!!

YUMMY!! CAKE!


ALEX HITTING THE PINATA! (THING ONE)


JOSHUA GETTING IN THE ACTION! (THING THREE)


JUST SOME ACTION!! (THING TWO)




soooo happy it turned out WONDERFUL! the weather was just BEAUTIFUL and the wind was blowing just soo....just enough to keep it cool and NO MOSQUITOS!! :)

went out to dinner for MATTHEW'S BIRTHDAY!

just had to share some pictures with ya! if you can't tell, i FINALLY got my program working to download my pics from my camera (thanks BIL!)...sooo, we went and took matthew out to eat at GOLDEN CORRAL because there is PLENTY of yummy stuff for him to eat there and he LOVES to eat there!! my MIL and FIL and our family went ther and it was just sooo nice to watch him eat and such....towards the end of the dinner, we had the wait staff come and SING for him HAPPY BIRTHDAY and it got me going...i did not THINK that would happen but there i was, CRYING...and i mean REALLY crying! i don't know...it was just so AMAZING to watch him be sooo happy and soo excited as we all sang to him...he was just sooo HAPPY...again, he is FIVE YEARS OLD!!! i remember it well when they didn't expect him to live past his first DAY!!! THANK YOU GOD FOR EVERY SECOND OF MY MATTHEW'S LIFE!!!! it was so neat because a fellow diner gave him $5 and he got soooo excited!!

sooo, here are some pictures of his DAY!!

MY SON.....THANK YOU GOD!

i just had post again.....this morning, when i went in cause i saw that matthew was stirring....i went in and my BEAUTIFUL, AMAZING, SMART, AND MIRACLE OF A BOY was saying something....GUESS WHAT HE WAS SAYING?!?!?!? my beautiful boy was saying..."FIVE, FIVE, FIVE..." OVER AND OVER AND OVER and he had his hand up SHOWING ME HE WAS FIVE!!!!!! he was facing the wall and he was looking at his hand and just saying that with a BIG SMILE over and over again!! :) he turned around to me and held up his hand and kept saying 'FIVE....FIVE!!" just soooooooo amazing! he is so HAPPY that today is his birthday....yesterday, when we told him it was his birthday today he started to JUMP up and down and get sooo happy!!

THANK YOU GOD FOR SUCH A MIRACLE BOY!!! WE ARE SOOOOOOOOOOO BLESSED!!!

HAPPY 5TH BIRTHDAY, MATTHEW ISAIAH!!!

ooooooohhhhhhh mmmmmyyyyyy GOOODDDNNNEEESS!!! our baby boy is FIVE YEARS OLD!!! wow, THANK YOU GOD for EVERY second of his beautiful life!! we have been so blessed to have him in our life....no words can describe the LOVE we feel for this special little boy!! FIVE LONG YEARS AGO, the drs told us when he was about an HOUR old that "we don't think he will make the transport (to the other hospital or surgery)" and they also told us >"i am sorry but your son will not make it thru the night"......BUT BUT BUT....they also told us, "WE MIGHT HAVE A MIRACLE ON OUR HANDS" and one of the MOST important statment made to us was "THERE IS SOMEONE MUCH HIGHER THAN ME (the cardiothorasic surgeon) AND THE DRS WORKING HERE"...an ACKNOWLEDGEMENT that OUR GOD was at WORK on this little MIRACLE BABY BOY!! OUR PRAYERS were being ANSWERED!!! to see him now, MOST don't know the STRUGGLES this little boy has been thru....until you realize that he does not talk, and has MANY MANY scars from surgeries and that he does not walk or eat.....you don't SEE any of that because he BEAUTIFUL BLINDING SMILE and GEORGEOUS HUGE EYES with those CRAZY eyelashes captivate you!! he has never met a stranger (unless he is a DOCTOR/NURSE) that he didn't LOVE!!! he is such a happy boy all the time!! ALL THE TIME!!! we are so amazed that he is OURS!!!

FIVE YEARS OLD....FIVE BEAUTIFUL AMAZING YEARS with him!!! he is the most amazing CHILD ever!! i really mean it! he is ALWAYS smiling and wanting to sit in your lap, give you hugs and kisses and wanting to READ!! he LOVES books!!! he LOVES flipping thru the pages of a magazing to look at stuf...he loves his MOVIES and he LOVES to talk on his COMMUNICATOR! he loves to be where ever we are...he enjoys sitting in his feeding chair and being at the table with us...he loves to chew on his food and loves to eat whatever we are eating...he is so AWARE of EVERYTHING now...just shows how much more he has grown...he is always just so happy....he loves his DADDY and LOVES to be with him!! he LOVES his brothers....his BIG BROTHER ALEX is his idol! he loves to see what he is doing and try to do it too! his BABY BROTHER JOSHUA...he LOVES to torment him! he wants EVERYTHING he has...it is so AWESOME to see him develope MENTALLY because that means he understands EVERYTHING!!

SOOOOOO, MATTHEW ISAIAH....WE ARE SO PROUD TO BE YOUR AMILY...WE ARE SO BLESSED TO HAVE YOU IN OUR LIVES!!! THANK YOU GOD FOR OUR LITTLE MIRACLE!! YOU HAVE TOUCHED EVERYONE THAT KNOWS YOU WITH YOUR STORY!!!

WE LOVE YOU MATTHEW ISAIAH!!!!!!

if you want to read his MIRACLE STORY...click HERE..

you can also see his 4 year MONTAGE HERE...

i will post his NEW montage SOON!!!